Updated: Aug 17, 2021
Do you ever wonder if life is just a series of random events unfolding before us, or if the action we take and choices we make determine our path?
Sometimes I look at my life and how I got to where I am and I'm like WTF…..How, why, when did all that happen. Then at other times it feels like it’s been a perfectly woven tapestry, a fine masterpiece.
The more I learn to love myself, the more I cherish this piece of tapestry art. I love looking into the details of its work and how the threads are connected and woven to create me. My life has not necessarily been easy (I don’t think anyone’s is) but it sure has been interesting.
Looking back, there were so many lessons learned in my childhood that taught me things I needed to know later in life. I also made choices along the way that dramatically changed my direction and situation.
I dance a fine balance between being proactive and reactive. Discovering the more I know, the more I realise I don’t know. And also acknowledging that joy can come from the not knowing and the surrender to the process of seeing what will be.
What I do know is that life is for learning, and I got to where I am today based on the knowledge I had, but that I need to keep learning and growing to get to where I am going.
Real growth comes from vulnerability and that’s not a comfortable space to be in, but the more I embrace those terrifying feelings, the more humble and authentic I become.
So as we begin 2021, it’s natural to reflect on the year that was and look ahead to what will be. I am not one to make resolutions, but I do like to look at what is working and what’s not and take inspired action from there.
My daughter and I were in Nepal for New Years 2020. Travelling with a girlfriend whom I had met there 20 years earlier on The Millennium Expedition for young Australians and her daughter. If I knew then where I would be now, I don’t think I would have believed you. A pandemic, home-schooling and self-employment were certainly not on the cards.
We had planned and saved for Nepal and I am so grateful for the experience. I’m still a big believer in plans and goals but also in having the flexibility and readiness to eagerly adjust and make stuff up as you go – we have had a lot of that this year. So grateful that with it came time to reflect, listen and re-set priorities.
At times it has felt messy, scary, lonely, and very strange but ultimately I believe in myself and feel a great responsibility to make the most of life and always do my best. Of course, I’ll make mistakes and keep making them until I learn and then make different ones and on and on it goes.
I can say that in 2020 I have got better at nurturing myself with kindness, love, and compassion, allowing things to be while also being the drive and change the world needs.
I have many intentions for the new year and one is to keep showing up and growing my confidence in sharing my stories.
I believe in human connection and the value in sharing stories and life with others.
As a funeral Director I heard so many amazing eulogies and always found it fascinating listening and learning about life through other people’s experiences. I don’t want people to have to wait to hear about my life through my eulogy, so I intend to write and share more often. I’m not really sure where it will head but it’s all about enjoying the journey, hey!
With so much change in the world I’ve found myself needing to change, maybe as a way of coping maybe I’m just growing up and finding myself ready to embark upon the new.
I’ve done that with a spunky haircut, resigning from my full-time job, moving to the beach and focusing on my Business – Bronwyn Brooks Grief Coach.
Finding the courage to do these things has been a case of facing fear but getting better at listening to my heart, my intuition and giving myself permission to be me.
From My Heart to Yours